and I could be your last chance, your "everything better" plan.

// Florence & The Machineeeee //
 

Heyo.
 
Some bad, some good.
 
But for the most part I'm alright.
 
How about on the flipped side?
 

 
I've been tragically busy.
I work on the weekends, I have conditioning during the week for 2 1 / 2 hours, and then I just got a job working at this new teen night club up by me every Friday for blackouts and get to come home with neon paint smeared in unmentionable places and dead glow sticks. Splendid.
 

 

I'm kinda popula.
 
lawl. I hope that was convincing.
 
Jk I've gotten like one text today.
From this kid that was sitting right next to me.
 

 
Anyway, I won't make this long-
I have work in T - Minus seven hours. What a bitchhhhh.
 

Aloha - The goodbye one.
 

 
Pee.Ess Suuuuuucks how our messages are robot censored now. Talk about limiting my vocabulary.
 

 
xxx
 
- Seleeeenah

 

-Hotlines-
 

Depression: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide: 1-800-784-8433
 

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
 
Trevor: 1-866-488-7386
 

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
 

Eating Disorders: 1-847-831-3438
 
RapeandSexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
 

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
 

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200
 
Exhale: AfterAbortion: 1-866-439-4253
 


- - - -
 
@itsbieberbby - I was sad tonight. Just for a little while. Anyway, I love you. Most ardently. I don't really understand what ardently means but It was in this book I'm reading so take it and I don't know look it up because my love for you is ardent.
 

@justinlovesselenandbree
@justin-derek-jason-bieber-anon
@smile-heart
 
@jdrewbieberanon ; Thank you, for everything. I mean that.
 
@nickmara-anon
@dangeran0nymous
@ed-sheeran-anon-withfriends
@thedaleyanon
@grandeanon
@selenurmarie-anon
@yourkidrauhl
@kendalljenjen-anon
@xocantbeatmedxo
@onikaminaj-an0n
@justin-loves-nutella-anon
@datdemilovatoanon
@sehlena
@juhstinbeeb4h

/ Nothing Like Us //
 

Crying, at the moment.
I don't know why. I'm just really grateful, after thinking about everything.
I have amazing friends, who really care. My family sometimes makes me really sad, but my life could be so much worse.
 
I sound like a sissy,
but I have no complaints.
 
I'm in a really good place.
And I'd really like to bring all of you here for me.
 
Because I think this is the light at the end of the tunnel they were talking about.
 
But I guess I can't. But I know you all have a plan, and that this place actually exists, because after all this time; I'm finally here.
 

I'd just like to share something with everyone hurting out there.
Something that'd helped me when I couldn't control anything, when I didn't know what was happening.
It's a scary feeling, but this honestly helped. I don't know why I started doing this, but I did, and it was... a start.
 
- - - - - -
The Glitter Jar
- - - - - -
There’s no science, no counting, no acceptance and no forceful methods involved in the alteration of your emotions during use of the glitter jar - just distraction.
Making a glitter jar is simple. You will need:
-1 jar (with a lid )
- 1/10 vegetable oil
-9/10 water
- Glitter - lots of!
- Food colouring
Add the water and vegetable oil together. Add a few drops of food colouring, all of the glitter and anything else shiny. Put the lid on (tight!) and shake it.
When you want to cut / binge / scream / cry / get anxious, shake the glitter jar and watch until the glitter is settled. It’ll calm you and hopefully the emotion will pass.
 
- - - - - -
 
I know it sounds cheesy, but it's nice, once you have something to rely on.
Something stable, something to control.
 

Make a world of magic, because real life is just so tragic.
 

On a last note, I'd just like the world to know that I really do have the greatest man to rely on. His name is Darian and he's got the most loving, tender, and caring atmosphere I could ever ask for. That's all.
 

I love you, whoever you are.
 

xxx
- Sele,nah
 
-Hotlines-

Depression: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders: 1-847-831-3438

RapeandSexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200
Exhale: AfterAbortion: 1-866-439-4253
 

 
- - - -
@itsbieberbby ; I really am grateful for you. and to you. for everything. Just... thank you for being in my life. I hope you're not so sad tonight.

@justinlovesselenandbree
@justin-derek-jason-bieber-anon
@smile-heart
@jdrewbieberanon
@nickmara-anon
@dangeran0nymous
@ed-sheeran-anon-withfriends
@thedaleyanon
@grandeanon
@selenurmarie-anon
@yourkidrauhl
@breebaby
@kendalljenjen-anon
@xocantbeatmedxo
@onikaminaj-an0n
@justin-loves-nutella-anon
@datdemilovatoanon
@sehlena
@juhstinbeeb4h

/ Heregoesnothin // Never Shout Never //
 

Ugh. Ed Sheeran. What a piece of sexy.
 

`Mmmm, I need friends. Excuse me while I go creep some strangers out by letting them know where the freckle next to my belly button is so they'll be my friends.
Lol, it's funny
because I'm serious.
 

`Anyway, I'm trying to make sets more often.
Lol, it's not working out very well.
Because like.
They're all either templates or this.
But, I mean, I can always make quality sets when I'm dead.
 

http://25.media.tumblr.com/72729e76b538a261aa1a69068203c016/tumblr_mhswgwReGK1qhft5ko4_250.gif
 
`I had a pretty sucky day, actually.
And that gif right there done did make my day.
 
I hope it makes your day.
 
`I just had a mood crash.
Buzz kill, literally.
 
`Whoop.
Ice cream time.
 

 
`You know what I hate?
When people are like "Just going to go eat and get fat"
I don't know. I think we all know I've had an E.D before and I actually get more offended by that when people call me anorexic.
It just really bothers me.
Like, no. You're not eating to get fst. You are eating because
you. are. hungry.
 

`If you ever have any eating disorder pet peeves, or axeity, or depression pet peeves, I'm serious- I got you, my inbox can never be full, you know that.
 

`I'm going to go get fat.
Just kidding.
 
`I love you.
Not kidding.
 
{ Selena }
 

- Weekends make up for the lost times that we both apologize for -
@justinlovesselenandbree ; I miss you, more than almost anything.
@justin-derek-jason-bieber-anon
@smile-heart
@jdrewbieberanon
@nickmara-anon ; I miss you too, I know I always say that, but I do.
@yourkidrauhl
@kendalljenjen-anon
@xocantbeatmedxo
@onikaminaj-an0n
@justin-loves-nutella-anon
@datdemilovatoanon
@itsbieberbby ; Gifs turn me on more than you, how's that feeling, girl? P.S, I'm putting you in the middle to piss you off. Wink Wink.
@dangeran0nymous
@ed-sheeran-anon-withfriends
@thedaleyanon
@grandeanon
@selenurmarie-anon

@itsbieberbby
I like u but u dun lyke me?
 
u slurt, u tuk mi virginerty.
 

u r obviously tryin 2 eat mi face hur.
 
u hate mi.
 
crey.
 

 

 

 

 
Wow I'm in a good mood okay.
Judge mi.
 

 

 

kk bb, mama luv u.

@itsbieberbby
 
If you don't do this I just don't know what I'll do with our marriage.
I just DON'T KNOW.
 

kk luv u ddy.
luv ur pumpkin

filling templates be-cuz I want to be on more be-cuz real life sux.
 

Lol, Just kidding.
No, but really.
 

 
Putting this under beauty because Deena is beautiful, mmk.

/ Skinny Love // Bon Iver //
 

"Sometimes a love just doesn't have weight. Skinny love doesn’t have a chance because it’s not nourished.”
— Justin Vernon of Bon Iver
 

 

Hey there, Honey bunches of oats.
 

 
Wow this set is going to shift a lot and my OCD is going to kill over.
 

Anyway, long time, no set, yea?
I blame @itsbieberbby for making violent love to me constantly.
 

Just kidding.
Kind of.
I just wanted to say the words "making violent love to me" okay.
 

 

But really, I am sorry.
I've been working on getting my grades back up since the first marking period I had a lot going on, and let them slip.
 

 

Lol, just so everyone knows.. I'm an official mathlete now.
By force.
 
My friends thought it would be funny to sign me up.Ha-Ha.
 

But don't worry, I signed them up for the winter bowling team.
 

I think we all know who one this one, mother
fuckkkaasss.
 

 

Anyway, How was your day, munchkin?
 
How've you been?
 
Has-
 

 

Oh gad, a manslut just messaged me on facebook.
Oh gad.
 
Sorry, done.
 

 

I'd ask more questions, but I'd rather talk to you and find out, all on my own, to be honest.
 

I have my worst midterm tomorrow.
 
Two essays an 65 multiple choice in 30 minutes.
I really wouldn't mind if someone stabbed me with spoons in my sleep.
....♥
 

 

 

 
So I guess that's all for now,
 
I really do hope you're not alone tonight.
 

 
{ Selena }
 

-Hotlines-
 
Depression: 1-630-482-9696
 
Suicide: 1-800-784-8433
 
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor: 1-866-488-7386
 
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
 
Eating Disorders: 1-847-831-3438
 
RapeandSexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
 
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
 
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200
Exhale: AfterAbortion: 1-866-439-4253

 

- & pour a little salt; we were never here -
@itsbieberbby ; http://25.media.tumblr.com/a544b8c91ee196575f09c49b37b9752c/tumblr_mgiz6qt7qr1rlq9imo1_400.gif
 
@justinlovesselenandbree
@justin-derek-jason-bieber-anon
@smile-heart
@jdrewbieberanon
@nickmara-anon
@dangeran0nymous
@ed-sheeran-anon-withfriends
@thedaleyanon
@grandeanon
@selenurmarie-anon
@yourkidrauhl
@breebaby
@kendalljenjen-anon
@xocantbeatmedxo
@onikaminaj-an0n
@justin-loves-nutella-anon
@datdemilovatoanon
@sehlena
@juhstinbeeb4h
 

 

I don't feel like tagging my whole tag list.
Boo you whore.

@itsbieberbby Sup you sexy piece of man.
I needed a new icon.
And you look stupid here.
So uh.
El oh El.
 

I have homework for you.
You have to listen to all the songs on my Darian playlist.
But I'm only going to give you five at a time, and you have to really really listen to them.
I have a playlist for you on my phone- I don't care how nerdy that sounds.
I've been adding to it since about a month or two after we started dating- the first time.
So uh.
You should get off yo ass and listen to them, because well, I'm a fuh-reak.
Wink wink.
 

Alright, First batch of songs:
 

- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slmfu0IP9Z8
^I kid, I kid. Sort of.
 

- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qU4wxPw6t_g
^ Listen to this one one. A lot.
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6cBZBeNfxwI
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8dYpp0Pj5k
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDHY1D0tKRA
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01nk6YWLY_M
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HwVoR5o9Fe8
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21YJcWdiNfI
 

 
Luh u pumpkin,
the very bossy mamacita girlfriend lady, home skillet.
 
P.S I have your grandma on my diickkkk.
 

God, Why are we such an adorable couple. I just can not even.

/ The Perks of Being a Wallflower // Stephan Chbosky //
 
** Sorry about all the notifications, This set kept shifting, and well. Polywhores. Alright, keep going **
 

Oof, Lana Del Rey.
Lana Del Perf.
Lana Del Gorgeous.
Lana Del Sexy.
Lana Del Hot Stuff.
Lana Del Make My Babies.
 
Alright, sorry I'm done, Hay boobear.
What's cooking good looking?
What's cracking, cracka?
Oops, too far?
Sowwiez.
 

Haha Alright, so how was your weekend babe?
Mine's been alright.
This set didn't take that long. Just like the alterations to it did.
I kind of like it.
Get like the different hot / light pinks and things.
I get it.
 
So sweet thang.
I'm reading a book this week, and oh god, it's perf.
It's called The History of Love by Nicole Krauss.
Oh my god it's so adorable.
 
My favorite line in it is like -
"Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was the question he wanted to spend his whole life answering."
Like come on.
Tell me you're not sexually excited from that.
oops, I meant *emotionally exctied.
Psht.... silly autocorrect...
 

Anyway.
I've been missing you. More than anything. School's getting pretty rough, but I'm trying to get on as much as possible without failing my courses.
I have so much make up work this week & next week.
Ugh. Wah me.
 
http://www.thiscrush.com/~selenasboobstho
I have a new crush tag.
Lol, that I haven't told anyone about yet.
How people found it already, I dunno, but ya know.
Hettt meee uhppp.
 

 
Anyway, I love you.
And you're perfect.
And Uhm.
you're looking pretty damn fine today chica.
 

& boobear, remember- You can always turn an inkblot into a butterfly.
 
{ Selena }
 
- & Kiss me like you want to be loved -
@itsbieberbby ; Whore.
@justinlovesselenandbree ; I miss you. I've been meaning to get back to you because you make me lauf.
@justin-derek-jason-bieber-anon ; you too.
@smile-heart
@jdrewbieberanon
@nickmara-anon ; I miss you too, It's honestly been forever.
@dangeran0nymous
@ed-sheeran-anon-withfriends
@thedaleyanon
@grandeanon
@selenurmarie-anon
@yourkidrauhl
@breebaby
@kendalljenjen-anon
@xocantbeatmedxo
@onikaminaj-an0n
@justin-loves-nutella-anon
@datdemilovatoanon

@itsbieberbby
 
not you, your boobs.
awkz.
 

 
So are you getting annoyed yet or? because I have more so...